Life is Uncertain (Eat Dessert First?)

What a week... Referrals are coming in for a lucky few and rumors are swirling about China's intentions from here on out. I'm so happy for the families who are receiving their referrals and the families who are preparing to leave next week to meet their daughters. I mentioned the referrals to my class today, and one of my students said he'd like to get on the computer to see those pictures!

Anyway, back to the uncertainty theme I eluded to in the title of this post. It sounds like China is getting ready to announce some changes to their international adoption program. People are speculating that it will effect those applicants who are seriously overweight, have some skeletons in their closet, or possibly single applicants. I do know that my agency sent out an email a couple days ago that addressed the slowdown and encouraged those of us in the paperchase to hurry up and get our dossiers submitted. It made me wonder what the outcome of this journey will be.

I have wanted a family ever since I was a little girl. My role model was my mother who was a SAHM. I thought that's what little girls did when they grew up - marry and have babies. Instead, I've become way more educated and independent than I ever thought I would be, which is a good thing, but I just never thought this is what my life would be like at 38. I've waited for my Mr. Right to help me make that dream of having a family a reality, but once I couldn't wait anymore I decided to adopt. I have been working so hard and making sacrifices so that this can happen. I would just be devastated if China decided that they didn't want to give their babies to single women like me.

While we all wait for China to let us in on their plans, I keep checking my mailbox for that I-171H. No I-171H, no DTC...